tears,joke and laugh!

many story after I had known about him.tears,laugh,joke,smile always appear in my life..but it changed after I had realized that he is far away from me!dont think that what I write it's for you...I dunno a reason why I write is like that!!!
hard to predict,hard to see,hard to face ah it's too tired!I ain't like this!God gimme a change to get someone that I'm fond,plese!gimme an angel who is able to save me!!i'm tired to wait,I wanna change.
don't u know?I'm so furious when you knew that you love is'nt me but my besties.so hurt and I cried so can't take anymore so breathless!but why should I cry?haha..I have to accept the bitter sweet way of life!Don't be broke our friendship due to of it!nooooo...noooooo...